My Current Thoughts

Right now, I feel less than human, I feel I don't belong in this place. I feel my friends deserve a replacement because of what I am. I had two woman chasing after me. I did what I thought was right. I asked them both to wait because there are a lot of things to consider. One of them would text me non-stop trying to impress me. The Other stopped talking to me and waited. To see how the first one would react, I stopped texting her, under the impression I was busy. Now two days later, she texts me several times asking if i'm mad at her. Now she texts me saying she doesn't care if i like her or not, she is done. I texted her a few hours earlier, before I had gone to the hospital, they did an x-ray on my chest to check for abnormalities. While getting this done I had to turn off my phone. Turns out, I have bronchitis, I received medicine which made me drowsy, So I took a nap. When I wake up, My phone has two texts one says So are you still not 100%?, 15 minutes later I received another saying, I Give up on you. I found out this woman is immature and unable to handle a relationship. Next I apologize to the other girl for asking her to let me consider. But than I figure out she moved on as well. So, Why is it when two girls ask you out in the first place, They can't handle patience. Is it a rule that you can't wait for someone? And all of this is making me feel horrible. Because, I feel I am going to be alone. But why should it matter anyway? I feel I'm already destined to be alone.